Sunday, March 20, 2016

Enough.

You do enough.
Three words, in the middle of a text message. But the compassion and understanding of those ten letters, made me cry...

Enough.
Superman is not well right now and  we are both scared of the uncertainty ahead of us. We feel exhausted, battered and at the mercy of an unrelenting illness....simple things are Everest to him, it is heartbreaking...

Still, Grant is ever mindful of the effects his illness has on others...he knows the anguish of judgement, disappoint, fear and shame more than most. In his struggle to function many have had to pick up the pieces, and Grant apologizes often....

"I'm sorry"

"don't worry...you do enough."

We've heard it all over the years....so when compassion and understanding are instant...tears come easily.

It's been so hard, but there is a sacred beauty, in kind words and shared tears....

We know we are loved by many.


Wednesday, March 9, 2016

Strength Beyond My Own


My Superman had this brilliant idea to quite his Coke Zero habit and cut chocolate bars out of his life, in the same two weeks he is also dealing with a med change and trying to teach two eager, teenagers, who think they are ready for the Indy 500, to drive...

These are also the same weeks I am trying to figure out how to be a Relief Society president who swears a lot less and loves a little more....

The Lord will bless you. That's supposed to start any day now, RIGHT?!?!

It's funny how at first glance it feels like these last two weeks have been our craziest yet and I must admit that on more than one occasion, I have asked...
"Heavenly Father...what were you thinking?"

 But, in the midst of crazy, there really are blessings...

The kindness and encouragement of others. The trust and faith and honesty of those I serve for and with is humbling....

When people let you into their darkest and deepest struggles and find the courage to ask for help. You are standing on sacred ground. I hope the blessing and responsibility of that is never lost on me. 

Oddly, I'm more confident than ever that things will work out and that our Heavenly Father helps in more ways than we will ever know....

 Savior, may I learn to love thee,
Walk the path that thou hast shown,
Pause to help and lift another,
Finding strength beyond my own.

Finding strength beyond my own....

I have had that strength come over and over again these last two weeks, that is where the blessings are...
Trials in this life will never disappear, our journey was never meant to be easy or perfect, but I will be forever grateful for all the blessings that help along the way. :)