"I have a family here on earth, they are so good to me, I want to share my life with them, through all eternity. "
As an older kid I hated this song, yup I said it...I hated it, we'd sing it and I'd roll my eyes. They certainly weren't talking about my family and I certainly had no desire to spend eternity with them....
Years passed...
I then got married and we had Holly and suddenly my little family changed my mind and for the first time I could imagine spending forever with someone. So, Grant and I worked really hard and when Holly was six months old our little family was sealed in the Cardston temple. One of the sweetest moments of my life.
I have never regretted that decision.
But I still roll my eyes. Yup I'm a mature, grown adult and I still roll my eyes...
I get MY family but I struggle to understand the hurt and heartache I feel when I think about MY Mom and Dad....
Why were they ill?
Why did we/they have to endure so much?
Why was it, what it was?
Why?
Is a forever family is even possible for us?
The quest for answers has been a hard-fought battle... Sometimes the hurt too deep, to even ask the question.
Forgiveness and understanding have come in tiny pieces...
But there was one question I couldn't find an answer to...I prayed (more like tried to bargain with), looked for others who had walked a similar path, asked those I respected, what they thought...
Still no answer.
Until....
I had to get up before the birds were singing on Wednesday, to catch the ferry to Vancouver. I was humbled by the request to join our friends, when their daughter would be sealed to their eternal family. It was a beautiful day at the temple.
In the peace of that place, my hard-fought answer came...Just like that...an answer. I wasn't even asking.
I realize know, I was actually looking for an explanation, not really an answer...when I was willing to hear the answer without the explanation. The answer came. It was a humbling experience....
Ok so I'll probably still roll my eyes, occasionally...but there is a part of that song, I completely understand....
The Lord has shown me how I can...
Grateful to share such a special day with our friends and for the blessings of the temple.
I get MY family but I struggle to understand the hurt and heartache I feel when I think about MY Mom and Dad....
Why were they ill?
Why did we/they have to endure so much?
Why was it, what it was?
Why?
Is a forever family is even possible for us?
The quest for answers has been a hard-fought battle... Sometimes the hurt too deep, to even ask the question.
Forgiveness and understanding have come in tiny pieces...
But there was one question I couldn't find an answer to...I prayed (more like tried to bargain with), looked for others who had walked a similar path, asked those I respected, what they thought...
Still no answer.
Until....
I had to get up before the birds were singing on Wednesday, to catch the ferry to Vancouver. I was humbled by the request to join our friends, when their daughter would be sealed to their eternal family. It was a beautiful day at the temple.
In the peace of that place, my hard-fought answer came...Just like that...an answer. I wasn't even asking.
I realize know, I was actually looking for an explanation, not really an answer...when I was willing to hear the answer without the explanation. The answer came. It was a humbling experience....
Ok so I'll probably still roll my eyes, occasionally...but there is a part of that song, I completely understand....
The Lord has shown me how I can...
Grateful to share such a special day with our friends and for the blessings of the temple.
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